Train to Win

April 2012

Today is leg day.  I’m on the hack machine feeling pretty strong.  Daniel leans on the nearby smith machine as I push off.  “1, 2, 3…Push through your heels.  Weight ok?”  “Yes,” I grunt.  “7, 8…We’re getting closer to competition.  Are you getting excited?”  10, 11, 12, rest.

“I’ll just be happy to walk on stage.  I can’t believe how much weight I lost already, ” I beam.  His face dropped and he leaned his jaw into his fist.  Oh no, what did I do wrong now?

“How much weight did you lose  already?  Twenty-one?  Twenty-two pounds?”

“Yeah, twenty-two.”

“You’re changing your whole life, aren’t you?”

“Yeah, I guess I am.”  I shrug my shoulders.  Where is he going with this? 

“Why won’t you train to win?” he asks quietly.

“Well, I’m never going to win, so why try?  I mean, I never even thought about winning…”

“I know, I know, you just want a nice bikini body, and you’ll have that, it’s just, you’re the first person I’ve trained for the bikini competition and I think you could maybe place if you only tried.”

This was news to me on both fronts.  Since he was a bodybuilder himself I just assumed he trained other bodybuilders for competition; I never thought I was his guinea pig.  I keep forgetting how young he is.  And he thinks I could place?  Yet another sign of his youthful optimism.

“Oh, you want that trainer success story on the wall, don’t you?”

“Yeah,” he laughed.

“”And you’ll get that.  I’ll write something up.  I think you’re a great trainer.  I’m more in shape now than I’ve ever been.”

“I just think you should try.  You have to train to win.”

But now I feel awkward.  I’m never going to win.  Why would he even suggest I could?  Because if I say I want to win and then don’t even place, I’ll just feel bad.  Won’t I? (c) 2012 Lisa Traugott.  All rights reserved.  No portion of this blog, including any text, photographs, and artwork, may be reproduced or copied without written permission.

7 responses to “Train to Win

  1. Yeah train to win, whether you win or not. I went into even my first race last year thinking ‘I’m going to win this race! Look at these people Jogging! pfft! I’m going run this whole thing!’ I did run the whole 10k (except one MASSIVE hill), and I didn’t win but I was like 6th male, but it’s the mindset and the inner drive. If you don’t train to win, you won’t win, but if you do train to win you just might!

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